"strike a pose there's nothing to it" - i've been singing that on the bus ride home..we were talking bout school..and i just busted out with this phrase out of nowhere.

"do i like you because you're wonderful or are you wonderful because i like you?" - hmm..right now i think i like someone..but it feels like i don't and i'm trying to hide the fact that i do because he really truly cares for another girl that does not want him. spending this entire weekend with him made me realize how special he is and how i don't want to lose him as a friend. its so hard...but he gave me the biggest most tightest hug anyone could give..i didn't hug back..just kind of stood there and "cherished" that moment. i miss him already.

57th annual key club convention - it was this weekend..so much fun. cheered my ass off..my voice is gone..danced my ass off..it was the best experience ever. so much better than fall rally. when i went to the bathroom to cool down from the dancing..i saw myself as a different person than when i was on the floor dancing. wow...that night i released so much stress..it made up for all the shit thats been happening lately. i so needed this weekend. but now..i'm bak to reality..sucks

tears - so many tears came down today..first becuz we got caught by curfew and i was scared for the club. i was afraid that we would get DQed from the spirit award. looks like we were only DQed from getting 1st or 2nd..so we came home with 3rd. all becuz of me and these 2 other girls. all we wanted was to chill and eat some pizza! but...yes..soo many tear drops rolled down my eyes today..starting from 2:00 in the morning to right now. such bittersweetness.

-[don't mind me..just have all these thouhts running in my head that i need to get out]-

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