i dunno what to do
well, im so confused, i dont even kno how to write this out really...ive been with my bf for practically 5 months now and it seems like we can get thru a lot .. but theres always been things about him that upset me a lot and i dont think he gets it .. like .. he tells me hes comin over, and then he doesnt show .. so i end up waitin on him for nuthin .. and .. it doesnt happen all the time .. but it happens more than it should .. but the problem is, his reasons for not comin are like understandable i guess .. he kind of has a "job" in an illegal way .. and he told me he would come over and he didnt show but the reason was cuz he was workin later than expected .. and then .. he got this interview for a record label thingy and he had a week to work on a song to make for the interview .. and the next day he tells me hes comin over and he doesnt show .. but he said it was because he needed to work on his song and get beats and shit .. i mean, i guess i understand cuz like .. rappin is his dream .. but i jus cant stand it when he tells me he'll come over and he doesnt .. and maybe he didnt kno he was gonna be that busy .. but .. he could call or something .. but he doesnt .. and then like .. i dunno, i think i get a little jealous sometimes, and now hes getting like 2 jobs and hes doin this record label thing tryin to get sumwhere with rapping .. and a lot of his time is bein taken up .. and i guess im so used to him comin over everyday for a little bit .. but yesterday was the first day we were alone since like .. tuesday .. and thats really not a big deal i guess, but to me it was because i just got used to seein him all the time .. and now i cant .. but its for the better cuz now he'll have money from his jobs .. and i feel like if i keep complaining it wont do ne good because he'll jus get pissed .. but im not askin him to spend all this time .. i guess what i really wantis for him to just call or something if hes not goin to show or if hes gonna be late ... i dunno why i put this here ... if neone has ne advice then im open for it
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