Just want to get my point across.
I didn't really know a better place to put this.. but, yeah.
Well.. it's been a while since I first noticed this, but I figured it was about time I got some help. Well, I play tennis.. and it feels like I have to try harder than other people to get a little attention.. and respect. I get a lot of attention, but not because of tennis, but only because I'm small in size. "Oh, Yeah, Toshi! Nice shot!" I didn't even get it over the net... When somebody else hits the ball into the net, nothing is said. I'm always pitied.. in some sort of way. That doesn't happen in my schoolwork, though. I already gave my teachers that first impression of being "a good kid.." or what not.
I feel like I always have to try harder than another person, or I have to rely on somebody else's help all the time. When people look at me, it doesn't really spark that image where I'm really good at something. It may even lead them to believe that I'm an annoying little kid that always needs help or something. I just want people to notice me for who I am.. what I'm made of. I want them to know.. that I'm not living just to annoy people and ask for help... that I can do stuff by myself and I can make myself stronger in my own ways.
I asked my friend what Naruto character I related to the most. Based on this, I thought I was more like Naruto, who wants people to recognize his skills and acknowledge him, but my friend had told me I was more like Konohamaru, who is rather a small and plain character, whose grandfather was an important person of the village. That really pissed me off. To be seen from only my size, by my own friend. It's like I'm being judged or something... like I'm not important. Whatever I do is good, simply because I'm only "a child" to them. It's like when a kid draws something for their mother, and even though the mother knows that the drawing is absolutely crappy, she praises the kid anyway, saying it's great and everything.
You see, I don't want any more of that in my life, and I'm not going to eat a crap load of vegetables just so that people notice me. Sure, I act like an idiot sometimes for attention.. but I just want to give off that kind of image.. because I'd rather be taken in as just an idiot than an idiot that always needs help getting to his feet.
I just wanted my point across... and if you read this whole thing, maybe you'll understand what I'm going through. Thanks for reading it..
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