regret
well, i was with a guy for 29 days [yeah, someone actually counted] and it was going well until i went to sadies. it was a blind date kind of thing. so that meant, i didn't know how the guy looked, how tall he was, or what kind of style he wore. all i knew was that he was a friend of a friends. i talked to him only twice talking about what we should wear. i assumed it was this one guy, not so good looking guy, which meant it was good for me since i had a bf and i wouldn't get attracted. oh boy, was i wrong. sadies day came and we went to my friends place to meet up. once the door was swung open i see these three guys sitting on the stairs. i see the guy i assumed i was going with. i realized he wasn't wearing the same thing i was. i turned to my left and BAM, there's a cute guy wearing the same exact thing that i was. [NOTE: we didn't shop together, obviously] that night i became so attracted to him. no help came from my friends. all i got was, "hey, he's older, he has car, he can drive, what more can you ask for?". boy was i lost. couldn't think of my bf that night. it was so wrong! then i stopped calling my bf. so after sadies i talked to derrick more. he seemed really cool, buh not as talkative as dru, my bf. he seemed pretty much straight forward, a little mean, buh i thought that it was just his way of being "funny". then a few days later, after all that thinking and advice from friends, i broke it up with dru. it was hard. he didn't want to hear it. i wish i could have thought about it more. then i went out with derrick and found out he was a total jerk! i broke up with dru for that! and lately, i've just been missing dru and i want to be with him again. not just cause of what happened with derrick, but because i really like dru. derrick was more of a crush. dru still likes me, buh i'm not sure if he wants to be with me again. should i tell him or wait?
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