one-way crush
this isn't a real valid poem, but it's my first written outside of a school assignment. it's called: One-Way Crush. and I wrote it because I have a crush on this one guy, but the promises I made to myself before keep me from even starting a conversation with him. I'm just hoping it's just a phase - a Korean "jjak-sarang".
Here it is:
one-way crush
written: 8.23.02
by: me
getting hooked by your look
gazing secretly from the left
hoping the class would never end
wishing you'd talk to me
waiting for someone to crack a joke
hoping you would turn and smile
mattering never to whom or what
seeing you happy is all I want
pondering if they were petty tries
feeling anxious when you tried to say HI
apologizing now: sorry I always cut our breaks short
taking a small step is what I'm afraid of
regretting now: we could've become best of friends
finding myself attracted to you
dreaming how it could have been, even as a friend of yours
thinking now: but only stupid memories, doubts, and worries ascend
defending now: no, it's not you, these just haunt days on end
question. will I go the wrong path if I say HI?
just remembered my Nile long priorities
now I'm hoping this is just an empty phase
last day is approaching
question. will I ever see you again?
ym says relationships are a two-way thing
find myself repelling in a helpless rush
writing this and ending this one-way crush.
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He remembered us when we were in trouble. His love continues forever. PSALM 136:23
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